Passage-School

Reflections

I can see a yellow tent and when I open the flaps of this tent, I see a blue-framed mirror hanging near the top of the front tent pole.
I keep looking at the tent and see red marks appearing in the yellow canvas. They are bloodstains and are now changing into more of a rusty colour.

When you see a tent, it suggests temporary accommodation and this temporary accommodation represents your body.
You noticed that a mirror was hanging in this tent, but also that red marks were starting to appear on the tent.
This means that the human in the reflexion gets wounded. Because that is what the mirror stands for.
In the reflexion the human is being hurt.
These blood stains have become rust-coloured, meaning that the suffering attached to having been hurt, has pursued the human for a long time.
The human as he sees, feels and experiences himself, can be compared to this yellow tent, because yellow is also the vibration of the thinking hat.
And especially in the thinking hat the human reflects something of himself, but he sees this behaviour in his neighbour as well.
The human who is not very conscious often says such things as: 'He is doing this or he is doing that or she has done this to me' but he is not aware that it is something in himself that is being reflected back to him by the other.

You know that every human has an aura, a presence, in which the vibrations of emotions have also been enclosed.
And when the human is looking, he is not aware that he is looking through his own vibrations and that these personal emotion-vibrations accompany his looking.
That what he sees in the other person says something about his own emotions. You can imagine that if a human is not aware of this and he thinks himself to be the victim of the act, i.e. the actions of other people, his suffering will only get worse.
It remains a stretch of fog to him, he remains the victim, and he keeps on feeling hurt. Because in the contacts he has, he constantly runs into certain issues.

When he is saying goodbye to one person thinking; ‘He has done this-and-that to me, so I no longer want to associate with him’, then he probably goes on  meeting people who send out the same signals.
And so the human starts thinking: ‘How on earth is that possible? Why am I constantly meeting people who are so annoying to me?’
But the human does not realize that he is getting some of his own reflected emotions, thrown back at him.

An example:
Magda: During a walk a gentleman touched my shoulder and said to me: ‘I think you are very, very angry, aren’t you?‘
I was astonished and thought: ‘Am I angry? I am not aware of that.’
I started talking to that gentleman and in the middle of the conversation he says: ‘I am furious’.
So what he felt himself, he believed to be seeing in me.

This is a very clear example of reflection and when you look at your own life, you probably recognize that too, although a human is not aware of it most of the time.
You will also see that while talking to another person there is always an interaction that develops. You are looking and seeing through your own aura, in which your own vulnerable behaviour is being reflected. But the person in front of you has that going on as well, and everyone is struggling with his own emotions. Therefore you can perhaps imagine why it causes so many communication problems. But what do you do? You always blame the other person and see his particular behaviour, but you don’ t see this in yourself. And yet it is very important to learn from it and understand this when you are further along on your path.
This belongs to the tent symbol, it belongs to your body, and this belongs to this temporary accommodation, this life.

Now I could ask you whether or not you can see your own reflexion, but that is very difficult for people to answer. I'd better ask you; what obstacles do you run into in contact with other people?
As you know, everybody has examples of this. When you say, 'I cannot actually say at the moment', then you are ignoring your own blemishes, you are ignoring your own vulnerabilities, you are ignoring your own suffering.
So, when you look at these moments when you get hurt, what you keep running into with these relationships with others, then you become aware of the element of reflexion that plays a part in these relationships and of the emotional vibrations you yourself are giving off.
You can probably see that the emotions that bother you in relationships with others run like a thread through your life and have to do with your lesson.
The lesson, packed away in the rucksack that you have been dragging along with you since you were a child.

But there is also another side to this.
As you now know that everything about yourself gets reflected back, then you are not really seeing anyone there in front of you. You always find that something of yourself is being reflected back and, if you are aware of it, you’ll never again be able to give an opinion about someone else.
Then you’ll never again put a colouring on the other person saying for instance: ‘He is so–and–so or he is such–and-such.’
 I am not helping you by saying: ‘Madam, sir, of course you are right, that person is very annoying’.
You can have a laugh about this now, but somehow you all think to yourself: ‘Gosh, I would have preferred a pat on the back from the Teacher’. No, I am asking you to turn inwards. So all my lessons are forcing you to keep on turning inwards.

See this lesson as a point of consciousness development. By this you’ll get a wider view on yourself, also a larger view on your lessons, because these various forms of contact are related to your own lesson and by becoming aware of this you also get a larger view on your own surviving nature.
Because the thing that bothers you most in another person, is that you are looking at his behaviour through the eyes of your own troll nature and at the same time, at the troll nature of the other person.
The troll nature is only busy surviving in this society.
It means that every human can also present himself as a human with many different faces, because each of you will be viewed differently by the other.

This is likely to be a rather provocative lesson for you.
But seeing how you are doing, and also seeing your development, this subject needs to be put down clearly for you. I hope that you won’t be angry with me. But in fact, it actually doesn’t make any difference to me, because the moment you get angry with me, you are simply looking through your own aura and it is just one of your reflecting points. Your anger holds the message: ‘I don’t want to see it, why doesn’t he mind his own business?’
You are very welcome to think that, but it only bothers you, not me.

I will let you free, with your own aura, with your own radiation, and your own contacts.
All that I hope is to have given you a wake-up call and that you will look differently at the irritations, the pain stimuli that you get in your contacts with other people.
But that is something you’ll have to do for yourself, I can’ t help you there.
I‘ve simply made an opening for you...

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